think again

it's so fudge up. when i read this back again for a couple of years say like 10, or 20 years, I wouldn't probably laugh my a** out. blah!

life. life.

poop

where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
where'd you go i miss you so seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
maybeiamthinkingtoomuchthislifeisgettingharderandharderformehowdoigetmyselfoutofthisihatemyown
ohnothisissobadsosobadiwishyoucouldknowarewedriftingawaynowiwastedmylifeandtimefornothing
igonnamoveonseemslikeyouandeverybodytooihatethisihatethispartrighthereihatethispartrighthere
doibearanyfruitthisfewyearsnotquitewhichissuchafailureeverybodylookatmelikealoserimaloserimagleek
ahnoahnoahnoamiindepressionbigdepressionicantsleepicanteatsleepingmakesmefeelimsuchaworthless
humanbeingonthisplanetofpokopenlordgivemethestrengthahidontknowhowyouguysdoiticanhardly
wannameetanybodyeveragaininthisworldorinthistownhesswimminginmymindattractiveprettyofficeryet
socoolwiththesleeknesswowwowwhatamitalkingabouthesswimminginmymindhecanhandleitprettywell
stupidmestupidmestupidmeimsuchanidiotarghiwannascreammylungsoutwherearetheywhenineedthem
bymysideimsuchahelplessgirlinmyownworlddamnshizhowcanifacetheintervieweeimsoashamedofmyself
shouldibean.....in....soican...with....wallawallawalllawallawalllawallawallallwallawallawallalwalllawlallaa

was it you who spoke the words

I am an unsuccessful graduate :(

12.35 am

this is beyond nothing i expected.

:(

time is running fast..why?

:(

Argh..wanna get out of this cocoon. :(

7.23PM

You would probably get bored reading all this entry. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time, but no that's not gonna happened. People always said just keep moving forward and there's no time to look at the past. I don't know why, but here I am feeling so awful about myself again, I can't get this feeling off of me. I barely go out nowadays, I even feel weird when going out, I feel like being on my own is the best for me, I miss my buddy so so so much, and I hate it here. Being unproductive all year long. What's gonna happen to me? There're so much things I gotta pay back. Thinking about all these things make me feel scared of myself...........

Worry

..............................
I

am

SO

worried

:(

Mixed Media?

I'm feeling crazily insane, upside down, mixed feelings, torn apart, & out of my mind. This is SO not good at all.

Some Words

I'm out of words to say
What I'm feeling right now
So I would only let the stars
Tells a story

I've been sitting here for hours
And I did not do much
But to just let the time slipped
Through these cracks

It's late,
But I don't mind
Let me just
Stay here a little while

Songs I Like

There some many online accounts I have that I can barely handle any one of them, well except for my "syiok-sendiri" channel. XD

I don't know what should I write at the moment, but feels like I want to post an entry. I wanna share some music I listen to.

David Choi - Something To Believe
Kina Grannis - The Goldfish Song
AJ Rafael - 500 Days
Paramore - Ignorance
Imogen Heap - Hide & Seek
Jason Derulo - Whatcha Say
Lady Danville - Sophie Roux
MGMT - Kids
METRIC - Gimme Sympathy
Train - Hey, Soul Sister
Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One